A New Beginning

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I'm not going to hide.

I haven't been the Christian woman I need to be.

It wasn't until I felt empty and lost that I realized what I've done to myself.
I went from witnessing to a minimum of 3 people a week to witnessing to 1 person every few months.
I went from actively pursuing God to becoming a sloth and neglecting the relationship altogether.
I went from encouraging and cheerful to draining, antisocial, angry and hurt.
I became overly selfish and snapped at everyone.
I took advantage of living in the campus ministry and did nothing to help those who see this as a haven.  I left their messes even though it is my job to pick up after them.  I saw them as children who should learn to pick up after themselves rather than people in need of a place to relax.

But no more.

I am going to seek God once again.

I am going to read my Bible everyday.  Not just read, but study it.

I am going to pray.  Pray hard.  Pray for those who are lost and hurting.  Pray for Christians that they would not give in.  Pray that one day I can get closer than I was before.  Pray I can be a witness and lead many to Christ.  Pray that the seeds I plant with no visual confirmation will be watered and harvested.   Pray that I can be a blessing to someone.

I am going to witness once again.  Cause Hell is real and I wouldn't be loving my neighbors if I didn't tell them about the escape.
Yes this last one may take me a bit more to get back into, but small steps.

So I ask that you pray for me.  That I would not fall back into this ditch, and that God would grant me Grace and Mercy as I try to stay consistent with Him.



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