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God I don't Understand- 6

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Fall 2013 Dear God, That was really cool what you did.  The associate pastor and outreach minister from the church I just visited knocked on my door.  I wasn't comfortable letting them in, but they were content to talk in the doorway.  They asked if there was anything that I needed.  I asked for prayer in finding a job.  The associate pastor proceeded to ask what my background was and after hearing said "I may know a man able to help".  He got my email address and said he would pass it along.  Within 2 days I got an email from the man he described and he seemed interested in talking some more.  He gave me a phone interview although it was more along the idea of trying to get me interested in working for him than it was for me trying to get the job.  We got a time set aside for him to show me the company.  He took me out to eat and said he felt like you were telling him to take care of me because I was walking in the FoG.  I asked...
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God I don't Understand- 5

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Summer 2013 Dear God, Thank you for letting my parents have a large enough nest egg to allow me to stay in Conway even though I don't have a job yet.  But, it's only for three months, then that's it.  I've got to go back home.  I don't feel like the church I'm going to is where I need to be anymore.  I feel so lost.  I'm glad I have a few friends who still support me. The Wayward Chemist Update: Summer 2013 Dear God, I'm church hopping again.  First I go to a nice little "country" church.  They are really nice, but when I ask them about their beliefs, they are too Calvanistic for me.  I tried a big church, and surprisingly enough, it felt right.  They have a section devoted for the deaf so this will give me a chance to work on my sign language again.  They have a good worship, I don't really feel like this is a permanent place for me, but it feels like a place I can work through things in. Thanks for the pick me up, The Waywa...
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Beautiful Mess

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12-11-14 I bought a house last March, and am just now getting to "personalize" it.  I'm slow at working on it, so it'll probably be years before each room is themed as I "dreamed".  A few weeks ago we painted the main portions of the guest bedroom (aka ceiling and walls).  We coated the trim in sticky blue tape.  I'm ready to decorate the room, but the room is not.  The closet is still in rough shape and the trim definitely needs repainting.  However when I was taking off the tape to see how much touching up was needed, I looked at the room and thought "this is a beautiful mess".  Weird.  My entire house is a mess.  There are loads of dishes to do in the sink, I have a path in my bedroom and only one spot to sit on my couch.  It's pretty bad.  So why did I think this was a beautiful mess?  I've thought that about a knitting project with yarn shapes everywhere, but an entire room? Then it's like God showed me the object less...
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God I don't Understand-4

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Summer 2013 Dear God, My support system has been taken from me.  I'm so glad you had me visit a friend and get out of the city prior to/during this is happening, I'm not sure I could have handled it otherwise.  I'm so confused.  I know my college ministry was getting a new director, but why is he literally tearing the walls down? I see the picture on facebook of the broken wall with many likes, but I feel sick.  When were they going to tell me I had to move out?  The new minister is my "friend" on facebook, why didn't he send me a message?  Why is the only one giving me information acting like I should have known this was coming?  Why are they moving so quickly?  I can't move out until the other girls move out of the place I'm moving into, but that's not for several days yet.  Where am I going to stay in the mean time? I have to pack so I can't stay out of the city.  What am I to do?  Why are they doing this? The Wayward Chemist...
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God I don't understand-3

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Summer 2013 Dear God, Thanks for providing merciful professors that helped me graduate.  I know if it weren't for you and them, I wouldn't have made it.  I guess now it's time for me to be patient while I wait to hear back from CTEH.  From how the timing worked (hearing from them about the application right before going on the mission trip, then having the interview right afterward), I thought that was the job you wanted me to do.  But I'm guessing it's not, since they've neither called me nor responded to my follow up calls with an answer of any sort.  Why don't people call back when they say they will?  If they didn't want me, why couldn't they have just told me so (some closure would be nice)? Help me to be a woman and professional of my word, The Wayward Chemist
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God, I don't understand-2

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Spring 2011 Dear God, I thought you wanted me to do the research, but the professor I was going to do a project with is gone now.  I thought that cancer research was the path you had for me.  But there's no one left here at UCA in that field that will take me.  I'm running out of time for getting my senior research started, none the less picked.  Where am I suppose to go from here?  Josh does his research in water, so I know a little about that... is that where I need to go? Water? Love, The Wayward Chemist
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God, I don't understand-1

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Spring 2010 Dear God, I don't think I'm meant to be a Pharmacist.  Quite frankly I don't want to deal with upset people hurrying to get their meds that will make them feel better (or not depending on how they use them).  I'm going to stay on the Biochemistry tract and go into Pharmaceutical research.  This way I can still help the people, but I can be in a laboratory making the medicine and ensuring the quality.  I hope this switch is under your guidance and not just me going my own way. Sincerely, The Wayward Chemist
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